Hope in the Midst of Mess...

My life = one constant mess. If it's not "this", it's "that"...and sometimes it seems the hits just keep on coming. Many times I wake up & wonder just how much more one person can take, but I dare not ask because I know I will be shown if I do. Some could probably find humor in the dealings of my daily life - like a comedy show gone bad. And honestly I'm good with that. I want to be able to laugh at myself, to not take myself & others so seriously, to laugh more than I cry. My reality, however, is that making the decision to live this carefree life described above, is not that easy for me. Actually no decision is easy for me because I suffer from the ugly disease of depression.

I find that many people who suffer from depression don't want to talk about it or even sometimes admit they suffer from it. It's embarrassing for many because of the stigma that has been associated with it. But I am determined to change that. Maybe I can't change the stigma around the world, or even in my community - but I can start by educating my friends..and that's a good enough start for me.

So, I start this blog for 3 reasons. First & foremost, I write in hopes that those of my friends who do suffer know that they don't suffer alone. Secondly, I write so that those who don't suffer from this ugly disease, will be more educated & will not be so quick to judge those of us who do. Lastly, I find writing to be therapeutic for me, so I'm hoping that while helping others, I will also benefit. 

Please feel free to comment your opinions, feelings, worries, concerns, joys, trials or whatever else you feel led to say. And please know, there is always hope in the mist of our mess.